She closed the book she was looking through to focus her attention on me. Don’t be deceived, she was reading a fashion magazine and was probably just admiring the pictures, not necessarily reading. My heart rate increased as her attention was now obviously on me. “Is something wrong?… Do you need something from me?” She asked confidently but as traditional of her, she did so confidently without anyone around hearing a word. She was an amazing creature at speaking admirably and undertone. I still couldn’t find my words and I knew that if I rushed them, I would stammer so I smiled and looked away briefly. “Madam Fausty wants us to form a study group…. Erm… I don’t know but she wants us to….probably stay over after school and learn…” I wanted to hit the nail by its head as much as possible but I knew I wasn’t really making sense so I paused to allow her ask questions probably to guide my revelation. “You and I? Why? Learn about what? I don’t understand…” Still calm and charming as possible, she asked the questions one after the other without waiting for an answer. “She wanted me to…. I mean she wanted us to help one another. Solving questions and having discussions where possible. And… and…it is not with only you, your friends as well.” From nowhere, I realized my confidence was arriving slowly.
I was expecting her to laugh it off as a joke but she didn’t. She looked at me strangely and I could tell she wasn’t believing anything I was saying. “I will tell the rest and see. I don’t know why she suggested it but I will try and bring my friends on board.” She assured me. With that assurance, there was no need to speak with her friends again and that was a relief.
After school, I was met by Prudence. I had never seen her so angry before. After minutes of trying to understand why she was so angry with me, I got to know that, she was told about my meeting with Lordina. Her group (Lordina’s) made her life a living hell because of her exceptional beauty. She told me about it but I never knew I would confront them one day so I advised her to stay away from them while I do same. I explained my situation to her after she had vomited most of her anger in words. It took a while but she finally came to terms with it. One thing I learned that day was the fact that she was in love with me. She wanted to keep me all to herself. Even though she didn’t say it explicitly, she implied it on several occasions. I would hate to make things complicated for Prudence more than they already are but I wasn’t ready to disappoint my crush as well. Had the directive or suggestions came from any other teacher, I wouldn’t have even acted upon it. Prudence promised she would control her feelings and not get into any fight over the issue. Even though her reaction took me by surprise, I understood better to respect her feelings.
When I left Prudence, I went back to class hoping to meet the girls seated but no one was in class. I was disappointed but optimistic that Lordina would pull through with the girls. So instead of going to have siesta, I sat in the class for almost 30 minutes before heading to the dormitory. I wasn’t a fan of dinning but that evening, I went. I was hoping that Lordina would come through with news of their meeting yet, I didn’t see her. That was when I realized that, even though I was trying to convince myself that I was doing all these for madam Faustina, I was actually fighting for acceptance. I wanted a sense of belonging. Just when I was readying for prep, I saw Daniella approaching me at full speed. I got scared but I was calm, hoping she wouldn’t create unbearable scenes…. (Story Continues)